LEWIS

Lewis and I went to Sydney Australia and really loved it. We met up with my friend from Sydney and she showed us the town. We went whale watching, we went on ferries, we had dinner at great restaurants, we saw small towns that felt like you were back in the 50’s, we found a great jazz club and we decided that we shall return to Australia for at least a month or two.

But as I always say, there are no guarantees in life and just to prove me right, my husband on the way home from Sydney to Los Angeles had a heart attach on the plane and died. I so wish I was not right in this one time. He did not have a heart condition, he was not sick, but he still left me and this earth. My grandmother always said man makes plans and the Gods laugh. I am devastated and heart broken. He was my best friend, my lover, and my soul mate. I was with him for over 50 years and he is now gone.

We had plans to go see our daughter and our new grandchild. We had plans to go traveling again for another 3 months with the group we had just left. We had plans to find a place to live and move out of Miami. We had so many plans and now we don’t. But at least he had a wonderful year! He even told me that this year was the best year of his life. He was so happy.

I could ask why did this happen to him, but there is no answer. I am so sad for him, because he will not see his grandchild and fulfill all the other plans that he had made. I am also sad that my life has just totally changed. I am now basically alone. Yes, I have family and friends, but it is not the same. I will always, from the day he died to the day I shall join him, have a hole in my heart. I love him so and I am heart broken.

We had always thought that I would go first. We talked about what will be when I died. We never discussed anything having to do with his unforeseen death. Even I, who is fully aware how fragile life is, did not consider his unlikely demise. This is why you should live your life to the fullest. Treat every day as if it was your last. Life is a gift that can be taken away at anytime. Lewis in his last year lived his best life, he traveled, he met people, he laughed, he had fun, he lived! Do the same, ill or not, don’t put off the traveling you always wanted to do or the fulfilling project that you want to undertake. I am so glad that when Lewis left this earth, he left with a smile.

Life is not merely surviving!!!!