I’M PSYCHED

I am now in California visiting my daughter, her fiancé and my granddaughter. Seeing my granddaughter is the highlight of my trip. No offense intended to my daughter, but when that little baby smiles at me my heart is melted. When she raises her eyebrows and looks me in the eye, I cannot help wondering what she already knows about me. It is as if she is looking into my soul. We spent a weekend at the coast of California and went to see the venue where my daughter and future son in law will be getting married. It is truly beautiful; a magical location in the Redwood forest.

Tomorrow I will get on a plane for Mexico City. It feels so strange to me to be going without Lewis. It is as if I left half of me in Miami. He made my life whole and he was my best friend and life long companion. This is the trip that we had planned to take together after my tests. So it is hard to proceed without him. But I do know that it is what he would want me to do. On the one hand I am excited about going but on the other hand it is so hard to do. It’s complicated. Life is complicated!!!

I did not say in my previous blog what the results of my Pet Scan showed. I just figured that all who read this blog would know that it was good enough so that I could continue to travel. It was beyond good, it appears for the moment that the cancer is stable and what cancer that I did have is gone. Great news!! Lewis should have been with me to share in this news. He would have been so happy! But all things said and done, I have to keep my head on straight and not get overly excited, because it is good until the next Pet Scan.

I am starting my trip tomorrow. I will be going to the Day of the Dead and honor Lewis, to see my old friends and to live to the best of my ability even though it is hard without that one person by my side whom I loved beyond reason. But I shall live as if each day was my last, because one never knows. Life is not guaranteed and one should not waste even one day. Live your life to the fullest, make every day count. Go out with a song on your lips and joy in your heart. Only you can make that happen!

Life is not merely surviving!!!!

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